ASTHMARA

empty heart, rolling roller coaster ride,
this is how i wreck myself inside,
i am tired of being myself, i am tired of being someone else,
and i am tired of being here,
shake the bottle, twist the cap, smash it hard, to the ground, hit the mud, cut your ears, see how it turns in a different way, none alike you thought it should be

first, i said i’ve got nothing to live for, she replied, "no."
then, i asked her what that i’ve got to live for, she said, "no, you’re wrong."
i am running backward hoping for somebody to catch me before i fall down,
before i drown

and we swim to the shore, days come and go,
i’ll love you, you will love me, that's all that we need,
fuck off everything, we believe in jealousy, i can live but i wish i could die,
not yet

i am coming home tonight, we will let go everything, just to see how it turns better tomorrow, see i wonder how it could be anything stupid or harder than this